So, The fourth Christmas without Suze....I'm surprised it's been the hardest. I can't help but feel like I've been letting people down with my lack of energy and my inability to care about doing things. I actually care but I can't motive myself to get things started. It's funny but once I start it's easy but getting started is incredibly hard. I just want to be relevant........and not a burden. The holidays will never be the same!!!!!!!!